I would like to share something I wrote that helped me through a dark time in my life. I hope it gives you encouragement and lets you know you're not alone. God can I be mad at You Is that something I'm allowed to do I'm really confused and troubled ​ I know You help me see And overcome calamity So why do I want to scream and yell at You ​ Please I'm only human This fragile heart can only take some much beating And while the worlds trying to tear it apart While it's still healing ​ I don't want to think I can barely breathe Fear has overtaken me ​ I know You are with me And I know You never leave Right now God this is heavy Hold me ​ If I stopped for a minute  I think I'd cry All of the emotions would flood back into my mind If I keep going I'll be just fine ​ I don't want to think I can barely breathe Fear has overtaken me ​ I know You are with me I know You never leave Right now God this is heavy Hold me ​ I'm getting restless Why God did You  Did You let me go through this This cuts deep Into my reality Why not just let it pass from me ​ I don't want to think I can barely breathe Fear has overtaken me ​ Friends, I know right now may look really bleak. I want to encourage you with Hebrews and James.. ​ Hebrews 4:14-16 ​ Therefore, since we have a Great High Priest who ascended into heaven. Jesus the son of God. Let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a High Priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses; we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are. Yet he did not sin. Let us then approach God's throne of Grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.  James 1:19 So then my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, and slow to become angry.  ​ ​ I wrote this when I had yelled at God. I felt so small and ashamed that I yelled at Him. I mean the maker of all. Me, just a little one on this earth and who am I to do such a thing! I felt that I couldn't pray anymore. Not for others, I know He hears my voice and so I would still pray for all my family and friends and then some. Yet for myself, I felt like I was lower than low for raising my voice to HIM.  Asking Him why, why let these things happen to me or even to people I cared about- WHY!?  I was hurt and sad and yeah, angry at God. I had never been angry at God before, so this was super new. I didn't know If I was allowed to be or where to go from here. .. I struggled for a few days, maybe even weeks. I felt such shame come over me. Then I got the courage, because I dared to believe that things will and should get better. I reached out. Let me say that again, I reached out for help. I know for some, so you reached out great. For me this was a huge step. I had tendencies, well for a good majority of my upbringing to not ask for help. Let me tell you, I am glad I did. I learned that i am not alone. There were ladies in my bible study group that had also yelled at God. I was shocked at first, and then after my bones had been shaken and I settled down. I realized that is how you can grow closer to God. I know it may sound crazy! Hear me out, God wants a relationship with us. If you think of some of your close friends. You banter, laugh, cry and perhaps don't agree on all the same song choices or clothing. I think you get the idea. Well if we want that same close relationship with our Lord and Savior. Then there will be times that we need to have a heart to heart. Now it doesn't mean that you have to yell but you can bring your cares and worries to Him. He wants our whole heart, all of us. So bring the not so great verbiage to Him and just let it all out. He cares for You and He wants to have you say it to Him.  I was reminded that God knows and he sees and hears me. Just like He does the same for you;  You are loved and cherished by God. More than You might ever know.  ​ 1 Peter 5:7 NIV Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.